It’s 3:39am and I can’t sleep. One of the joys of PTSD. Sometimes it’s nightmares that awaken me. Sometimes it’s anxiety or hypervigilence. I’ve been living with PTSD for almost 9 years now. So, in some respects it’s not really “new” to me. Yet, as I look back on my almost 42 years of life, […]
Ways To Help a Special Needs Family 1~ Babysit / provide funds for a few sitters / work in a team to babysit 2~ Bring food/ meal gift cards/ order and have it delivered ( but let the adults know ahead of time) 3~ Offer to help clean ( then actually do […]
Hello all! Just wanted to let you all know about an exciting journey that we started about a month ago. You may remember when Kathleen received her certification as a holistic health coach. Since then, due to many factors, she hasn’t been able to see clients and really get a start on things. Combine Kathleen’s […]
Some days (ok, most days) I feel like a total failure. I’m told that’s part of the guilt that comes as part of my PTSD. Lots of negative self talk. I feel like I’ve failed as a father, as a husband, as a provider for my family. But you know what? I didn’t ask […]
Hello everyone. It’s Mark. I know I’ve been MIA for a while, but I thought I just had to write today. Today is 9/11/15. For those of you not from the US, it’s an important day. If you are not aware, it was 14 years ago that airplanes crashed into the World Trade Center in […]
As Mark has shared, there have been several significantly traumatic events in his life. And while I was by his side through it all, I didn’t face the emotions he felt. I do however, feel my own feelings. I know… That is a totally novel concept 🙂 God has allowed us to walk these paths […]
August 3, 2014 I really don’t know where to start…. I guess the best thing to say is, if you haven’t read the blog post titled “Rage”, you should read that first. This entry will be an extension of that… As well as the events leading up to and causing my PTSD. One year ago, […]
what runs through my head at 2am Will I ever fall asleep at 2am What’s wrong with me at 2am Will I ever be good enough at 2am Can’t slow my brain at 2am Thoughts fly through my mind at 2am Just buzzing like a fly at 2am Screaming let me out at 2am Locked […]
This is one of those topics that I’ve been trying not to write about when discussing my PTSD. It’s a feeling that I don’t like. Guilt is something I struggle with greatly. There are two types of guilt that I’ve found myself, and others with PTSD, have found to be literally debilitating. The first, and […]
This has been a topic of discussion between Kathleen and I a lot recently… Friends are hard to come by for both of us… Seems we have “internet friends”, which is cool and we appreciate you all so much, but you can’t hug an Internet friend, or call them up and just chat, or go […]
